td

no, not td canada trust, but more like tc down syndrome...
if i come across as i'm trying to bash whoever has it or what not, i'm not...i'm merely trying to discuss it...
so some of you may ask what is tc down syndrome. lets start of with what tc is first. tc is teens conference, held annually during march break for 2 days for teens. "The goal of Teens Conference is to help youths understand Jesus and His message in an open and honest environment. TC also inspires and equips Christian youths to live a radical and active life of ministry with Jesus Christ." (direct copy from AFC)
so tc down syndrome...i'm sure many have experienced it, i have also experienced it myself. the feeling of loneliness is just one of the symptom. you feel as though the thing that means most to you has just been snatched away. you feel like you got nothing to do now, and the past 6 months flew by and you wish it could've lasted a lifetime...it happens...
why is happens, i believe that it is because tc is a high (there is no denying that fact). despite tc being a high, there are just SOOO many good things about this ministry, that i will continue to support even after high school. but back to my point, with tc being a high, regardless if you serve or not, your emotions are running high, adrenaline is pumping and you're pumped. and then wednesday hits, no more waking up at 6 to get a coffee and go sound check or setup, no more meeting up with your team (particular worship and media) to practice/chill/fellowship...so you feel lost...you feel you lost something very close to your heart. it is because you have lost something very close to you, and something that means alot to you. you also are no longer stressing over tc, because its over. so the days after, you crash. you go from very high on tuesday night, down to near rock bottom. the team you have been practicing with for 6 months, you are no longer a team, everyone will go their seperate ways. (those who get to do it again together, count your blessings guys.) you'll start end up missing everybody. during the time when you normally have practice, you will feel lost, not sure why you're even at home. but in the light of all this, i think i was able to grasp something last year from my experience that i want to share. from experience "td", i learn that rest is very important. read Mark 6:30-31 (i know arthur shared this with you TDSBWT, but bare with me) this happened after the apostles returned to Jesus after He sent them out. they returned with stories of how they casted out demons, healed sick people etc etc. they were on a high (like tc), but Jesus told them "get some rest". after being stressed, feeling nervous and what not, Jesus didn't tell them to go to this, go to that, do this, do that, He told them to rest. reading this passage after tc04 really helped me to avoid a long "td". and like many of you are probably thinking, i also thought "i couldn't serve in any other way" (which was worship team for me), but like one of the sayings on a card i saw at mitchells "write down your plans and give God the eraser", and that can't be more true. yeah, i miss worship team, i miss the practices, the arguement over sets, the last minute changes, just the overall experience, but when i think back to how blessed i was to be able to serve Him, it doesn't matter anymore if i have this opportunity again, because the first time was already a blessing. rather than asking God why He didn't give me an opportunity again, i thank God for giving me the first opportunity. i realize its not what i want that matters, God will place you somewhere He wants you to be, and He knows you like no one else, He even knows you better than you know you. i think the best "solution" to "td", is not to miss your experiences, but rather to thank God and praise God for giving you that opportunity, placing people in your lives that will leave a mark for the rest of your live, and ultimately serve Him in this ministry.

wow....i was everywhere, oh wellz, my thoughts are all over the place...=)