td

no, not td canada trust, but more like tc down syndrome...
if i come across as i'm trying to bash whoever has it or what not, i'm not...i'm merely trying to discuss it...
so some of you may ask what is tc down syndrome. lets start of with what tc is first. tc is teens conference, held annually during march break for 2 days for teens. "The goal of Teens Conference is to help youths understand Jesus and His message in an open and honest environment. TC also inspires and equips Christian youths to live a radical and active life of ministry with Jesus Christ." (direct copy from AFC)
so tc down syndrome...i'm sure many have experienced it, i have also experienced it myself. the feeling of loneliness is just one of the symptom. you feel as though the thing that means most to you has just been snatched away. you feel like you got nothing to do now, and the past 6 months flew by and you wish it could've lasted a lifetime...it happens...
why is happens, i believe that it is because tc is a high (there is no denying that fact). despite tc being a high, there are just SOOO many good things about this ministry, that i will continue to support even after high school. but back to my point, with tc being a high, regardless if you serve or not, your emotions are running high, adrenaline is pumping and you're pumped. and then wednesday hits, no more waking up at 6 to get a coffee and go sound check or setup, no more meeting up with your team (particular worship and media) to practice/chill/fellowship...so you feel lost...you feel you lost something very close to your heart. it is because you have lost something very close to you, and something that means alot to you. you also are no longer stressing over tc, because its over. so the days after, you crash. you go from very high on tuesday night, down to near rock bottom. the team you have been practicing with for 6 months, you are no longer a team, everyone will go their seperate ways. (those who get to do it again together, count your blessings guys.) you'll start end up missing everybody. during the time when you normally have practice, you will feel lost, not sure why you're even at home. but in the light of all this, i think i was able to grasp something last year from my experience that i want to share. from experience "td", i learn that rest is very important. read Mark 6:30-31 (i know arthur shared this with you TDSBWT, but bare with me) this happened after the apostles returned to Jesus after He sent them out. they returned with stories of how they casted out demons, healed sick people etc etc. they were on a high (like tc), but Jesus told them "get some rest". after being stressed, feeling nervous and what not, Jesus didn't tell them to go to this, go to that, do this, do that, He told them to rest. reading this passage after tc04 really helped me to avoid a long "td". and like many of you are probably thinking, i also thought "i couldn't serve in any other way" (which was worship team for me), but like one of the sayings on a card i saw at mitchells "write down your plans and give God the eraser", and that can't be more true. yeah, i miss worship team, i miss the practices, the arguement over sets, the last minute changes, just the overall experience, but when i think back to how blessed i was to be able to serve Him, it doesn't matter anymore if i have this opportunity again, because the first time was already a blessing. rather than asking God why He didn't give me an opportunity again, i thank God for giving me the first opportunity. i realize its not what i want that matters, God will place you somewhere He wants you to be, and He knows you like no one else, He even knows you better than you know you. i think the best "solution" to "td", is not to miss your experiences, but rather to thank God and praise God for giving you that opportunity, placing people in your lives that will leave a mark for the rest of your live, and ultimately serve Him in this ministry.

wow....i was everywhere, oh wellz, my thoughts are all over the place...=)

easter weekend

that drama put on by tjcac was amazing. truely, mel gibson, step aside! it brought many thoughts to my head as i see Him being crucified, mocked, yet still died for us even though He could've sent the army of angels to wipe us out. He didn't only die for the ones that love Him, He even die for those to mock Him and spit at Him. truely that is unconditional love from our Father in heaven. tmr is the day when we celebrate His resurrection, His rebuilding of the temple in 3 days. let us rejoice for our Lord and Saviour.

anyways, just to clarify...i don't have ANY of the vids, well, i have a couple, but they are the low quality ones. i still have yet to transfer the vids files as the file transfer kept screwing up during TC, so all the vids are still at AFC as i type. hopefully i can swing by afc one d ay to do it, but vids file are not in my hands. but recording, tdsb team, since dan is gonna make your recording, i'll be giving all the cds to him via someone from jaffray, and then he will make you guys your "official" recording with the nice cover and everything. as for non-tdsb team, the only decent recording was tuesday night, and thats NOT because of you guys. i'm going to start touching it up (just trying to remove the static n what not) and then hopefully by the party date (whenever that is), it'll be ready.

thats it for now. CONGRATS to everyone thats getting baptized tmr. Rex and Carrie being the two I know, so yay!!!

sick

man...didn't feel too good today. slept for like 15 hours in total today, threwup once n been getting chills almost the whole day. felt alot better after dinner, hoping i'll be ok tmr. still haven't uploaded any of the tc pics, will take me awhile cuz i got a bunch of 'em, also need to sort out the tc recordings, especially tdsb conference on tuesday, haven't finalize the disc yet, so basically its useless until i finalize it. tc media videos are still only on camcorder, i failed at transporting 'em onto the external cuz there wasn't enough time, so hoping to get that sorted soon.

will blog more another time, gonna hit the sack...

don't worry edith, it happens to most of us. the next few weekends (or more), you'll be sitting at home (during the time when you would've been at tcwt practice), and wondering why you are home, and trying to think back where all the time went the past few months. then you will start missing your team, wishing the last few months could've lasted a few years etc etc.

anyways, had the COP (concert of prayer) for the tdsb kids today, went pretty well...sorry kevin for making you type up lyrics for our spontanous worship songs. big thank you to derrick, mel, donald, jordan and fiona for coming out today. also a big thank you goes to season, donald, derrick, jeff, ernest, fiona, and josh for coming out last week. it was awesome being able to worship with you guys again.

this year's tc, being held at young nak, i duno, feels a bit weird there, maybe i guess i'm used to having it at rh3c, but yeah, they rented the nicest sound systems, it sounds amazing, more on that later. in the mean time, i'm gonna go sleep now, need to be there by 700 for sound check.

Hectic week

Wow...what a hectic week it was, but honestly, I enjoyed every second of it. It began on Sunday with preparing for the non-TDSB COP, up until Thursday with the last day of school. In the middle were 3 tests, and 3 16-hours away from home days. Lets not talk about school since its march break, but tc05 (and 04) has been on my mind since tuesday.

seeing everyone on tueday night at tc worshipping God wholeheartedly was amazing, brings back memories of last year. it was even more amazing seeing all the people that got saved and joined the family, praise God! the worship was amazing, and i felt God's Spirit truely alive in the sanutary that night. special note the wt, amazing job, you guys were awesome, praise God for bringing 8 strangers (well, kinda) together and molding you guys together into a team, praising Him in one body and one spirit. to be completely honest, seeing you guys brings back many memories of last year, the practices, the laughs, the jokes, and just the whole experience altogether.

a note for edith, there was never any worship vs media battles =) only two teams having some fun with each other...and then throw in rec, which makes a whole big joke! =þ

Guess who's back

I dont know, something got to me, and I don't know what, got me back into thinking about blogging again...anyways, more to come.

So instead of moving to xanga, I created an account there, for nothing. After the previous post, never posted at xanga, and never really planned to, it was more like I quit blogging, but it wasn't really a habit back then anyway.

Now why did I start again today? I don't know, nothing really happened to trigger me to start again, I just...started again. Hopefully I can actually keep it going again.